Life has me in an odd vice. Lately I have been feeling so off that I'm not even sure which direction is the best way to go. I am fighting a bitter war against my mind, and I am losing. I no longer have the ability to interrupt what it is telling me. Here it is 6:09 am and I have not slept. Apparently my brain thinks that is a good thing. What is there to do when your problem is yourself?
My largest concern is an old friend that has started treating me like an enemy. They have no idea the impact they have caused. They were the one I go to talk to. It is good to talk. Not problem solve, but to just talk. It use to help me get it moving somewhere. My problems seemed easier after those talks. Now they no longer wish to speak to me. If you are reading this for any reason, I am sorry. Truly. For whatever it is I caused.
Here's the good news. Life is simply a battle you won't win, because you die at the end regardless. However, with any combatant that knows it will lose in the end, you mark sure the other knows you were there. You make that fight one hell of a throw down. So here I am, stuck in my corner getting my teeth kicked in. I don't fear, because I know the bell will be ringing to end this round soon. When the next round begins, well you better hold onto something because it is going to be one hell of a ride.
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